Though this all not gold, there have been some golden moments. When things went right, when it went smoothly and the snow smothered the trees in white, I thought I was in heaven. The sound of snow crunching under my boots, the smell of smoke from my neighbors wood stove, the sting of cold.
I missed the changing of seasons for 24 years. This was in some respects a re-birth. Yes there were moments when things broke, when I struggled with my projects, when the weight of my family choked me that I wished I was not here or that I had a way to make things better. There was a month in which I writhed in pain as my back went out so badly that I could almost not stand. However, it forced me to find a better way to address this and now I am better than I was.
There are better husband than me as well. My moods do change, and when the pressures mount, I become unreasonable and unbearable to be around. Fixing up my office as I have has helped. Getting most of my projects completed has been great as well. Yet, when I see all the things that I have to get done, I feel so overwhelmed and forget that you progress slowly, oh so slowly.
I am not pleased with my photographic work. I thought I would have organized more, worked on technique, and gotten more work onto my sites. I was surprised with how much time my projects took and how much time the house took. In some respects, living in an apartment and having no projects and only work is actually easier. In fact it is.
Next year I hope to get on track again with my photographic endeavors. I hope to get new images on the wall and now that we have a home here in Vermont, I have new walls to fill as well! In fact, I hope that one day we won't have to rent our small home and can just close it down until we return in the summers or on vacation.
But I will always remember cross country skiing and the most beautiful spring that I can ever remember.
Stay Gold
I missed the changing of seasons for 24 years. This was in some respects a re-birth. Yes there were moments when things broke, when I struggled with my projects, when the weight of my family choked me that I wished I was not here or that I had a way to make things better. There was a month in which I writhed in pain as my back went out so badly that I could almost not stand. However, it forced me to find a better way to address this and now I am better than I was.
There are better husband than me as well. My moods do change, and when the pressures mount, I become unreasonable and unbearable to be around. Fixing up my office as I have has helped. Getting most of my projects completed has been great as well. Yet, when I see all the things that I have to get done, I feel so overwhelmed and forget that you progress slowly, oh so slowly.
I am not pleased with my photographic work. I thought I would have organized more, worked on technique, and gotten more work onto my sites. I was surprised with how much time my projects took and how much time the house took. In some respects, living in an apartment and having no projects and only work is actually easier. In fact it is.
Next year I hope to get on track again with my photographic endeavors. I hope to get new images on the wall and now that we have a home here in Vermont, I have new walls to fill as well! In fact, I hope that one day we won't have to rent our small home and can just close it down until we return in the summers or on vacation.
But I will always remember cross country skiing and the most beautiful spring that I can ever remember.
Stay Gold
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